meredith murphy | the ideafrontier

the pathway of reflecting and choosing to make meaning

Today I began to see one of the ways my presence is opening up the hidden, mystical, aspects of life. I deeply glimpsed again, a new, multidimensional way of relating to the world. I was given clarity that hinted at this before but today it came into a view which I could absorb more. A sense of how life is changed. I know this discovery is rich and I committed to exploring it more so I could share. I am awed by it, truth be told, and thrilled by the path it's opening for me!

I believe we each are capable of this and in ways no one else is--that our unique presence is the key. This seems very clear and very real and so natural!

For each of us there are pathways which are recognizable--having affinity with who we are, our energy, our Cosmic, Planetary and Soular DNA--which when we dip into our deeper current, we begin to be more aware of and articulate about. If we tune to this regularly a conversation opens.

I invite and encourage you: make time to show up and listen. To reflect.

Reflecting is powerful. It's different  than being in meditation or in silence, in solitude with attention to your inner knowing. Reflecting is a soft focus of making meaning. Of understanding and noticing. This devotion to understand and realize takes your awareness into deeper levels. Let yourself see what you do express when you consistently trust yourself and attempt to speak of your inner knowing.

Each of us opening to these pathways is how we will begin to map what's emerging as new in our world! This is how it's always been, but it's even more available now. Our devotion to self love has given us the confidence to show up and trust our experience.

This new frontier awaits us and is still changing, appearing, being made. It's amazing and profound. What can you tell me about it all? I will not know it fully except through your sharing. I hope my devotion will make it richer and more known for you.

Together. That's how this will open up for us. By sharing and by mapping the landscape of expansive newness--together.

the secret, 3-step process for how to have an easy, sensationally-amazing life.

by meredith murphy

Before you read this article, I want you to make sure you're sitting down and present to yourself.  I kid you not and if you trust me, please take me seriously on this.  You will be glad you did and probably feel an enormous impulse to send my flowers!  I love peonies, by the way.

The reason I say this is that I'm about to reveal something very simple and wickedly brilliant.  I didn't invent this, so it's not like I'm tooting my horn, it's just I noticed it.  It's one of the secrets that's hidden right out in the open!  The most tricky kind.  I'm sure I'm not the first person to consciously catch-on to this.  It's part of how things work, that's all.  And actually, because I live with this knowing, I'm perfectly fine tooting my own horn whenever I feel the impulse. Because of living this process, I know I'm fabulous.

WARNING!  This process is so simple, that you may be tempted to dismiss it.  To read this and then go get a latte.  Don't be silly.  That pattern of encountering truth and then blowing right past it is the problem behind most things in our lives we are tired of and wish would change.  That's how it is with stuff like this--we think that incredibly amazing results come from effort, some magical process of knowing that we don't have, or from birth.  This one actually kinda is a gift from birth, so that part is maybe true.

The thing is, everything in life is up for grabs.  Not just now, while the world is going through a clearly chaotic band of trans-formative reshaping.  But always. To take advantage of this, you have to snap yourself out of the routine and open your heart.  So we're going to start with a self-assessment here to decide how much fabulous-ness is going to flood into your life when you learn this secret process.   Read this and then see how you feel:

I am so blessed.  Day after day I am amazed at what an incredible life I am experiencing.  I've created so many ways to feel good and to live freely.  I am still dreaming new experiences into being and the ongoing expansion and creativity is exhilarating.  

Okay--how was that?

Do you resonate?  Are you like, "Damn straight Meredith, right there with you arm in arm and skipping!"

Wonderful. I'm so happy for you!  Don't you just want to jump up and down about it?  Me too!  

On the other hand, if you felt sad, angry, irritated, happy for me but envious or even! rolled your eyes...that's okay.  For all of us--the choir and the just grumpy and everyone in between, I will now amplify the truth: there is an easy path to everything stupendous in life--be you.  BUT, there is a catch! (You knew it! didn't you. Ha!  Of course it can't be this easy or else everyone would have already done it!)  Okay.  Let that cynicism that perpetuates the status quo be recognized, we're going to carry on.  The catch is this idea modified: be you--no more, no less.

Sometimes it's bumpy to get started on this path, especially when you realize you haven't trained right for it.  You get pissed off because now you're trying, and a an entirely new life doesn't materialize overnight and you give up. Sound familiar? What often happens is that each time this urge to truth in living emerges you make a go at it and discover, or see again, that there are so many parts of your life that you created, in essence, as a compromise with who you really truly are that it's OVERWHELMING.  There it is.  That's the problem for so many of us: it's OVERWHELMING.  This is solved by Step 2 below.  So no fear.  You can do it.  Breathe.  Come back to center.  Open your mind, connect to your heart again.  Moving on.

This process will honor your elephant of a question of HOW to close the gap between where you are and that incredible you waving back at you from the frontier of your existence.  You know, that version of you that you feel so clearly and know is the perfect weight, oozing joy from the ultimate soul-mate romance and always happy.  The one that is even at times seeming to take joy in teasing you with how gloriously sunny and unblemished life is and you just want to say, sometimes, "Screw you!"  Or when it's really discouraging in life, "Please, just go away!"  Well it's okay.  Take the high road.  The many costumes and less-than-good-fitting situations in life probably served you in some way for some time.  This process deals directly with these kind of feelings and in a very practical ways.  You can begin to change your life the second you're done reading. No lie.

Now, back to those icky things you HATE and want to immediately stop doing because they're so NOT you now, and yet they seem to make up so very much of your day!  It's so overwhelming to look right at this because then you feel like someone spun you around until you're dizzy and want to barf.  Listen closely: you're going to initiate a poised, ritual dismembering process and those things are out!  You can do it.  Just act it out until it feels natural.  For starters, bless all these things even though you hate them, because they're going.  Do this with extreme appreciation.  Start relating to these like parts of life like old friends with whom you've arrived at a natural parting of the ways.  Old friends who you never imagined would hang out with you and then they did and then you kinda noticed you weren't having that much fun with anymore.  Because in essence, these old situations helped you navigate life until you were ready to take the steps you're now taking.  They bridged the gap.  Now though, you can relate to them like people who you loved to watch movies with in the past, and who are now about to move to another continent! How convenient!  That's what's coming and there's no stopping it because you're now committed to you!  So smile, be nice and bless these situations and relationships as you imagine waving good-bye (and good riddance--oops!  Was that my inside voice?).  Then get about the 3-step process and change things. It will feel super good to throw away or even burn these too-small shoes little by little, and wiggle your toes while laughing your best hauty laugh in front of the fire!  Look forward to it!  There's no rush and there's no anxiety if you do it gradually--it's kind of decadently delicious!  How amazing.  The key is perseverance and devotion, allegiance even to your authentic life being liberated, which points right to Step 1 and 2!

Step 1: choose to be you, no more, no less.  CHOOSE.  Not "prefer" to be you. That's what you have been living, as in "I really love coffee ice cream but I'll take rainbow road if you don't have it, I don't care."  No--you actually do care about this.  CHOOSE to be you.  Make a decision. This means, as Tony Robbins so brilliantly expressed eliminating all other options.  Yes~! No more of anything that isn't you.  "OMG!" Your heart screams while racing, "That means putting all my eggs in one basket!?!"   Yes.  That's exactly what it means.  And that wasn't your heart--that was your lizard-brain!  The part of you that is constantly ready to do battle with anything that looks, smells or tastes like the painful past.  Re-assure him that his stubborn attentiveness is about to get a new job!  He'll be great at it: helping you stay on the path of what feels right!  He's like the perfectly trained every-vigilant personal assistant.  Okay, so now you're both focused on the same target!  Excellent.  You don't have to drop everything instantly. In fact, you don't want to unless there is only one thing left and even then, maybe you want to ponder the path out of that.  You might even go have a glass of champagne with your lizard just to celebrate this new alliance!  You want this to be fun and feel good and because you've made a declaration of your intent and are going to stick with it, you will get there. 

If there are many constructs that create your experience that are your way of bridging your soul and the world when you felt unable to be your real self, you will need to gradually dismantle these.  Remember to clean up as you go and then treat yourself as you make progress.  Glance at the rear-view mirror and wave a quick goodbye at these remnants of the more limited life you used to live then return to imagine, magnetize and build replacement constellations of being.  That's fun!  And it's how you actually create change--you put your attention on the more genuine forms of expression, the ones that fit you better, and you love them into being by showing up on the path of creating and recognizing them day after day as they emerge into form.  You accelerate this by expecting each day to see more and more of your inner vision reflected in your experience.  Expecting wonderful of course figures in here! You allow yourself to do this at a pace and level of intensity that's exhilarating and builds your confidence in having what you want. This is self-love expressed as mastery!  Not sure you can do it?  Of course you can.  Just show up.  You can learn it as you go.

It's quite astonishing to discover what you can create if you just choose to live in alignment with your heart and perpetuate this focus over time.  This is Step 2: Persevere.  This means you allow this orientation to your new life to guide your choices.  That's all it takes...because when you live your OWN life, you soar. Achieving an elevated experience within your human life happens organically as you just stay the course.  

"But HOW does this work?"  Recognize that's the fear-lizard creating anxiety while he just lies in the sun.  Don't let him outwit you.  He's old human DNA, you're evolved.  He's useful, but not cutting edge rocket-scientist material.  Your soul-heart litmus test of "does it feel right," is, however, brilliantly reliable. So comfort him with the reminder about what all great artists know and just deal with: choice creates anxiety.  It's normal. Change creates anxiety.  It's normal. Letting it stop you? Not normal. Dysfunctional.  Stuck.  Blocked.  You don't have to Rambo-through things. You simply acknowledge your anxiety, remember your commitment to yourself and walk through the nervousness, and even the cold sweats, releasing the dead weight by continually reminding yourself that you matter. Encourage yourself by telling yourself that YOUR life is meant for YOU.  Take an inspiration bath in someone else's joy and use it to entrain yourself into more confidence.  Listen to awesome music. Give yourself a break when it's too hard, but get back on the horse.  That's what all great creators do.  Great creators stoke the fire of their vision, stay involved and close to the birthing process and don't move onto something else until they've brought forth something they know is true and whole.  Then they celebrate while smiling with resonant delight, already imagining their next project.  You don't need to drink whiskey, contemplate suicide or be an outsider to be a great creator.  It's the method, not the form of someone else's life that you want to adopt.  

As you live your authentic life in small ways, you build a better relationship with yourself and your trust and confidence grows.  That's really "how" this works. We all build our chops gradually and experience gives us belief in our self: the magic of Step 3.  This step you don't even have to do! You just open and receive.  

IMPORTANT!  To do all of this, you don't have to jump off a cliff on faith, and if you tell yourself you do, I'm here to be the truth-doctor, shake my rattles and chant, "Mirage! Mirage! Stay focused! Middle way!  Middle way!"  The idea that you have to leap on faith is an old, very dangerous lizard-created backlash to keep you in a state of avoiding change!  Be careful how you deactivate this.  If you sense the lie, get mad and then tear everything apart, and push yourself by leaping off a tall building, instead of walking the middle road and taking good gentle care of yourself, you'll likely crash and burn.  Because you got triggered by fear of not having happiness into a crazy high-risk, "I'm a bird!" move you might be tempted to justify this choice by interpreting the outcome as proof that you can't have what you want, "It's impossible!"  Don't do it.  Another lizard pathway.  Get back on your path instead.  Be humble, admit you panicked and got lost and start again for your desired destination.  If you already did this high-flying act (I've done it myself, you have lots of company), continue to let yourself mend and deeply treasure your unexpected new ground-zero freedom.  Take heart--it's ironically easier now to create because you don't have to fear losing what you lost.  It might be a little sad but you can't lose anything that's really yours so who cares?  Stay focused light-warrior!  This prodding that gets normally calm people running off cliff-tops is the lizard's way of trying to douse that inner longing for more joy which creates anxiety because it necessitates change and involves re-approaching things that are associated with old paradigms and past experiences of fear, pain or risk.  Got it?  Good.  Now you won't fall for that one again.  If it got to you, so what?  It's just life.  Be mellow and smile: the turtle, not the lizard still wins the race.  Work the process.  The secret 3-step process is works and it's never too late to just, as the Buddhists remind us, walk the "middle way."  No more extremes necessary.  Extreme joy still possible!

What I've discovered, and the awesome implications of it continually expand in meaning is this: each of us is already enough for everything that is OURS.  That's how you get to ease.  Just live your life.  Nothing more, nothing less. And remember--not just ease, but sensationally-amazing ease!  Meaning deeply felt down to your bones ease.  That's a beautiful key point to write in large lyrical cursive rainbow letters across the sky.  Look up and remember! You're enough for it all!  (All meaning, everything that's you and yours!)

Inside our beautiful heart, we know that this is the sustainabile path in life.  We KNOW IT!  This is a truth that's been expressed over and and over again! How do we know this? Well when we live it, doing all three steps, it accumulates power and it works!   When we're beginning, we still can trust this through experience because we discover that doing what is sincere just feels right.  

The call of the best version of you, is an brilliantly resourced and informed sherpa to bliss!  That sense of who you might be?  It's only showing up in your life; it's specific to you.  Your inner trekker knows your way to the seemingly mythical Shambhala, Shangri-La, Heaven on Earth, or whatever you call paradise and joy.  The way to this ideal blissful locale is subtly and persistantly informing your sense of direction, and is not reliant on faith or confidence or anything, because it's just truth rising up again and again from behind any and every facade. Notice it or not, there are signs everywhere! Your reliable, sustainable path to an easy, sensationally-amazing life, just IS.  Anytime you are ready to begin, your inner compass updates the map and lights up the path from where you are now, to your experience of paradise.  

So there you have it.  

1)  Choose to be you, no more, no less.  No one else.  Not a mimic version of someone else's happy, YOU.  Check in with yourself whenever in doubt as to something being "yours" or not.  If it makes you feel good or gives you more peace when you imagine it, that's a "Yes!"

2)  Persevere.  It takes time to reinvent your life.  Especially if you want to do it and have fun, avoid a nose-dive and minimize anxiety.  Start with little things throughout the day and when you want, pick one significant area of life to lure back in from being out on a limb where it feels fragile and unsupported and give it real roots by building it right.  Your true life, by the way, doesn't require going out on a teeny-tiny fragile limb that scares the bejesus out of you!  Your true life is supported by a massive network of rooted energy and strength.  It's a walk in the park on solid ground.

3)  Watch the demontrations and open up the gifts!  Receive the presence of embodied confidence! Savor the growing roots of self-trust!  Enjoy the results of your devoted effort and know you can use this secret process to create a bazillion perfect moments of expressing yourself and being in life.  Let life prove to you this works, it will happen and this will give you wings.  No more crash and burn!  Right on.  The more you do this the more you'll want to rustle up even more challenging aspects of life and edit them into your perfect self-expression. Oh, and you'll discover you're sleeping beautifully AND your skin glows! 

*BONUS.  (Yes, there's even a bonus, how stupendous is this?)
Living this way creates a momentum of world peace.  Seriously.  This is how we get to a happy, beautiful, wonderful world.  If you hoped world peace would happen when space ships showed up at the Olympics or when an earthquake split California in half and brought everyone to their senses, I suspect this might be a Lizard-prank to distract you into complacency!  Don't buy it.  Stay focused and do your part bucko!  World peace rocks and you're a STAR~! No one else can play your role! Your amazing life is waiting at the frontier for you to catch up!  It's also chasing you from behind.  It's circling you, divine-bombing you from the nearest cloud, bubbling up from under the pavement, coming at you from all directions. Yield to this persistent tickling! Cry uncle to your heart, let rip your now treasured snort-laugh and realize you're both on the same side. 

Life wants to flow through you unimpeded, without resistance.  This is how you also get healthy, discover your ideal weight, begin to see auras, rake in abundant cash, roll in the sack with the most amazing lover, have all the personal space you want, create your most terrifyingly enormous visions and experience a buoyant endless energy that you feel the minute you wake up. Okay, maybe if you're clairsentient you won't end up seeing auras, but the rest is TRUE! I'm living it!

All it takes is to reunite forces with the powers that be.  The power that is you. 

If you're still reading this, thank you!  What a great moment for world peace! Please release your outrage at all the wasted moments while the lizard kept Toto and Dorothy waiting.  It doesn't matter, what matters is NOW.  Pour him another glass of champagne to loosen him up while he adjusts to his new job, and meanwhile share this article with anyone you think might also like to sing their own song for easy money and fun!  Life is ever-present and available at a moment's notice to abundantly reward the few the proud the sincere who show up with their own thumbprint reflected in their life expression.

Cheers to your fabulousness beautiful one!  I see you walking down that middle-way red carpet, surrounded by the reflection of adoration!  It's blindingly luminous--you in your element! and the light is hot!  It's your moment as the Sun.  It's here!  It's timeless!  Everything is coming together!  Easy, sensationally-amazing and always getting better. You are fantastic! 

~

P.S.  Do you have a awesome Ninja strategy for wrangling your lizard? As always I love to hear from you!  Please comment below.  Your insights help all of us. Namaste!

the courage to be

by meredith murphy

Feeling quite brilliant and expansive. I came through a major passage yesterday. A wonderful, albeit also grief filled shift into a larger reclaimed, known sense of self. Grief mostly gone, now I'm just cultivating the gentle permission and taking easy inspired steps to birth my life in alignment with my new knowing. Slowly. Gently.

We are all so much more expansive and diversely creative then we live! It's amazing how easy it is to whittle ourselves into a smaller version of who we truly are. Deep within we each know things we sense are ours to create and yet they perhaps overwhelm us with the largess of the vision! 

There is anxiety with this expansion, which I simply recognize as part of the process of change toward that which in the past was accompanied by very difficult experiences.  This is simply a given when we move boldly toward our wholeness.  To empowerer ourselves we learn skills to deal with our anxiety. We affirm our value, we affirm the value of doing what we love just for the joy of it, we allow ourselves to view things as different, rather then terrifying.  We give ourselves the chance to discover ourselves in new ways knowing that then the play and exhilaration of creativity and newness can eclipse and replace the anxiety, the hesitation, the lingering even past-life informed sense of doubt!

With wisdom and faith in all that I AM, I will just acknowledge that part of me that wants to be shy and stay as I am.  I am staying with myself yet learning to walk through this anxiety, and continue toward my own leading edge and continue to move into new territory... just walking through any feelings of doubt, or overwhelm about the bounty of my being.  Knowing they are temporary, they will not last.  Seomthing else will arise.  I am devoted to love and am bringing my strength and courage, my gentleness and innocence to the playful, fun path of creating my own life.

This is my bhakti path, my path of devotion to love, flowing into this beautiful world, as me.  

 

re-instating wholeness in hard times

by meredith murphy

At times it's hard to feel your connection to anything.

Life seems hard.  You wake up even at the dawn of the new day with a sense of unhappiness, dissatisfaction, frustration, even anger.  This is part of life in our evolution--that these feelings come to the surface.  Are triggered by our relationships.  Are fed by what we think about.  Are deepened by our memories.

When we're in one of these experiences, it can feel all encompassing.  It can feel like there is no way out.  

When this feeling has gone on a while and as the mornings have come and gone, it has not lifted, it's easy to lose your orientation.  You might even begin to feel just angry and outraged by the whole thing.

All of this just continues to stir up the muck.  And yet, even knowing this, when you're in this space, that doesn't help.  It seems like nothing helps.  That no searching frees you.  You lose your faith in asking for help.  You stop calling upon angels and your higher self.  You may not even feel their presence anymore and again, you find yourself astonishingly, seemingly, not connected to anything.

In truth, you are one with the vastness of being, the divine realm from which you and all life is continually emerging.  Yet you don't feel this.  And it is feeling this and living as this knowing that is what we're evolving toward.  You know this and you are committed to this and the reality that you can't get there right now, only increases your suffering.

When we find ourselves in just such a depressing, frustrating state of being, it's really good to just slow down.  To not worry about the fact that it seems like we'll never be happy.  To not fuel the anger, but to sink into it.  To become deeply intimate with it all.  Yuck?  Why yes. Uber-yuck.  Yet it is by allowing ourselves to acknowledge what is happening, that we begin to reinstate our wholeness, and our alignment with ourselves.

When we're at odds with our feelings, we're at odds with ourselves.  When we feel unhappy about our feelings, we're fragmenting something that is actually whole--our experience. We're aggressive toward ourselves and our experience.  We resist it.  We hate it.  We fight it.

By starting with just acknowledging what is happening and being aware of it, we start to return to an experience of wholeness.  We start loving ourselves!  We didn't even realize it, but we weren't loving ourselves, in fact that is what perpetuated this whole mess!  Even though it might not feel like it, it's true.  By paying attention to what we are feeling.  By greeting what is happening to us without fighting it, by recognizing it--not by labeling it necessarily, but by feeling it consciously, intimately--we are actually coming into agreement with the moment and with our own life, our self our experience, our very being.  We're saying "Yes, I see that."  We don't have to like it, but we're no longer at odds with ourselves.  By acknowledging what's happening we stop fragmenting ourselves.  We're coming into clarity by doing this and we're coming into wholeness.

Staying with ourselves is the most important part of being alive. 

If we don't stay with ourselves, we're not loving ourselves.  We don't want to be conditional in our love of self.  We want to love ourselves in all ways.  When we make the same mistakes again, when we feel crappy, when we're unhappy, when we get angry over something we know isn't even about us.  When we don't even know why we feel bad, we still want to stay with ourselves.  Whenever we fall short of our own ideas of ourselves and what we think we ought to be, we're living in dis-harmony with ourselves and we lose the experience of our own wholeness.

In this process of awakening, many of us have experienced expansive bliss, had visions and insights that are radical and life-changing.  We've felt our bodies changing and we've devoted our focus and our life to the collective awakening and our own personal evolution toward embodying light and love.

To find ourselves in the muck after all this, can feel like an enormous disappointment.  Or worse.

Yet perhaps in this incredibly difficult state, we're might actually discover and be able to see our own divine embodiment progressing.

By staying with ourselves, we become the love we wish to be.  We say to ourselves, "I love you no matter what you're feeling."  We put the truth of our eternal, divine nature into practice by behaving toward ourselves and our lives with the compassion of knowing we are still pure, perfect, radiant love.  Regardless of appearances.

As we learn to love ourselves this intimately, this deeply, we grow the capacity to create a love-filled world.  Even more important, we cultivate the embodiment of wholeness as awareness.  We deeply support Gaia and our whole world, with this seemingly disconnected, personal activity of becoming better at being intimate with ourselves.

There is much in our experience that arises that we may not understand.  Yet we still stay with ourselves!  

We can see what is.  In doing this we can be clear about what we're feeling.  We can more intimately know our experience.  We can trust that in this close, attentive, love-filled relationship to our life, that we're doing the most important thing--staying with ourselves.  Learning to be whole.

Amazingly, by doing this, life settles.  It might not happen immediately, but life is in motion, it's not static, and merged with it, with our experience, we enable this to flow into a new arrangement.  And the more we love ourselves in this moment, even if that only looks like accepting, or noticing, or tolerating...all of it is a start to returning to wholeness.

Our mind is naturally peaceful, as is our being.  

When that feeling, that state eludes us, we can interpret this correctly: we are out of alignment with ourselves.  There can be, as we all know, peace in the midst of any and all storms.  So we don't have to change what's happening, we just have to stay with ourselves.  We can trust that if we stay connected and with ourselves we're reinstating our wholeness, feel the peace of not fighting things, pay attention to ourselves instead of wishing we were somewhere else (thus fragmenting our wholeness and our presence) and instead, go the distance, knowing eventually joy will return.  We can sidestep worrying and feeling bad and acting in faith, just stay with ourselves.  Like we stay with a good friend through hard times--reassuring and present.  Paying attention.  Noticing.  Gentle.

By slowing down we can see our experience more clearly and stop saying "no" to our life!  We can stop basically ignoring ourselves.  As we hang in there with whatever is happening in our life, and live saying "yes" to it we begin to notice the energy of freedom.  Realizing this is the ultimate submission to life.  Not fighting it, actually liberates our innate freedom!  And as we become one with it, returning to ourselves, then one with our life, we can gently, from within the wholeness of our being, allow a shift to arise.

When we've been feeling badly, or disoriented, confused or filled with despair, finding the subtle energies of love and grace can seem hard--like learning to taste the rich flavors of food without salt!  

When we come into full presence with our experience, we re-instate our wholeness.

As we speak to ourselves with love, reminding ourselves and remembering that all is well, that we are one with everything, that it is our innate state of being to be in peace, to know ourselves as love, we give ourselves company.  And we experience comfort.  By slowing down, by allowing ourselves to settle, we allow this memory of our true, luminous nature to surface.  It arises naturally.  And organically, without effort, we plant within our consciousness, the seeds of eternal joy as love.

the deeper current available to us all

“When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy.”

― Rumi

living the new paradigm: accepting the generosity of life

by meredith murphy

Life is ripe with opportunities.  It's endless.  Each morning we awaken and it unfurls in our presence.  

We call forth our experiences with our expectations, feelings, focus, intent.  

The opportunities to discover pathways to joy, innate wisdom, happiness, relief, communion, abundance--they're continually available.  They are ours to claim, and all we do is turn within and call them forth by paying attention to that desire.  

We are here now.  All that came before is just memory.  All that lies ahead is just plans.  All that distracts us in the moment is thoughts.  Beyond plans, memories and thoughts are countless invitations to the good stuff!  Life is offering us endless generous openings.  Are we living with this awareness and allowing our experience to ascend?  To rise up, to soar even?

It's time to shift into living in the present and commanding energy to your liking.  It's time to expect more...

I'm personally (naturally) expecting wonderful.

You?  

 

mirror, mirror

More and more it is so obvious...

This is the real conversation to have with ourselves in the mirror!

What would it mean to realize we are each, our own, dream come true? To look nowhere but in the mirror for all that we wish to know, for the love we wish to feel...to gaze deep within to the opening to everything that resides inside.

Ah...! Abundant love and happiness. Yes!

exhilaration! i am movement.

by meredith murphy

The New Human exists at the fulcrum of vast inner movement and the reflection of this in manifest realtiy.

To begin to know this experience, I claim my true nature: I am movement.

As movement I feel exhilaration! I don't know exactly where I am going and at times this has held me back, but no more. I don't always see the big picture of why I am drawn to certain things, but I trust myself and I allow myself to move into, toward that which I am drawn toward, that which I love and which I feel like experiencing--not slowly gingerly, but with heart and enthusiasm--running freely, the wind in my hair, kind of movement.

I am invigorated by nature and life.

I am embracing my innate innocence and sense of adventure.

I have let go of needing to see all the steps in front of me.

I am just flowing, moving toward life in each moment. Trusting. Confident. Strong. Joy embodied.

Beautiful!

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Movement supports our body as we allow the intense energies we're experiencing to elevate our experience. I've doubled my daily walk time with the dogs and am also beginning to think about rollerblading again and/or running. The more we participate with these waves of energy cooperatively, merging with the energy, the easier this is. I'm noticing that the more I move physically the better I feel and using all this energy to exercise is also flowing the energy it in a wonderfully positive way for my body!

To get into this flow of movement, I had to cultivate it.  It grew gradually as I noticed any kind of movement energized and opened me up and so I kind of kept at it, little by little.  I had so much inertia after all this inner stuff for so long!!  Eventually more and more movement became part of my day and the whole thing got it's own momentum. I know it will continue to expand as I am appreciating it and noticing the delicious ways I feel! 

I am a big fan of stillness and inner movement.  For me, I simply came to a point where my inner movement was SO VAST! My life in manfiest reality needed to come into balance and also move with more acceleration and expansion to reflect this.  

I needed flow in all of my life, not primarily on the inner planes where it was.  

All of this amazing, vast inner movement, NEEDS to come forth in our manifest reality!  The inner movement so many of us have created, in manifest reality, will expand our world!  I see the reflection of our inner "ultra-marathoner" emerging in our manifest reality as a powerful gift, balancing and harmonizing our world and revealing the New Human--who moves on inner planes and creates and shifts energy in big ways day in day out.  This most naturally will be reflected in the outer experiences we have and are.

I am an embodied being who was covering enormous distance within and yet my outer life was not moving so dramatically and I sense that's what's next...to have created enough alignment with our I AM presence, that we are able to elevate our seat of consciousness and reflect the inner reality by letting it flow into our way of being in the manifest world.  My outer life was kinda stuck... I am not just talking about exercise here, I am talking too about literal movement--to new places, creating new things, new relationships, manifesting my ideas and releasing them and creating more and more and more...about overall acceleration and letting it create more movement in manifest reality as a natural allowing of my energy to expand and be unified and harmonious.

In addition to all the inertia from so much stillness, there was a part of me that wanted to plan and organize my life...like I used to in the old paradigm.  For so long there was a part of me that wanted to KNOW and in this wanting, I hesitated.  Waited. I tolerated not knowing decisively and let parts of my life not move.  The thing is--now that we are moving beyond patterns and habits, there is less "known" about life in the long-term sense.  We can focus upon the essence of things we wish to experience--joy, happiness, vitality, love, abundance, freedom--and generate these.  The particulars are dynamic.  As we release patterns and habits, we become more FREE.  In this freedom life is spontaneous.  Dynamic.  In-flux.  And we don't need to see all the steps.  I've known this for a while, but it's different to know this and move slowly then to know this and RUN HEADLONG into life.  !  Running takes real trust and confidence.  And for me, really it is a leap of faith I'm embracing.

What changed so much of this is the clear indicators of how right-on this way of being is>>the incredible exhilaration of movement and joy just became the desired experience.

Life is accelerating, changing so fast now!  It's much easier to yield to my innate aliveness and to flow and dance with life enjoying the movement and also having the confidence that I can alter thing whenever I need to.  This is living based on the true understanding of reality that I have.  I am a powerful creator who can revise reality to suit my heart's desires.  Continually. I don't have to know what I want ultimately, I just have to know what I want NOW.  I just choose what's right NOW.  Later if I want something different I can do/choose that.

We are learning to live in Infinite Time, embodying our eternal, creative, limitless selves, which are continually changing/moving/expressing...holding onto NOTHING.  Why would we?  We're one with everything anyway...?  It's more a matter of where our focused experience and expression is right NOW. 

We are movement as life is movement.  

For me, I love running, sprinting, speed--things like skiing, bike riding, driving with all the windows down and the air rushing by me, rollerblading and skating fast--so that's my way of stepping fully into the nature of this true reality.  For others it might be different--maybe more like swimming, or diving, dancing, or flowing.  Choose your way of moving...what feels right to you, but I encourage you to tap into the incredible joy of motion with the increasing energy.

In light of our innate ongoing movement--wave-particle-wave-particle--it ought to come as no surprise then that hesitating feels irritatingly icky and moving feels incredibly fabulous.    

I AM/We Are movement embodied, I invite you to choose to cooperate with that.

Exhilaration is yours to experience!

And WOW.  It feels wonderful.

 

cosmic clues to happiness

by meredith murphy

This morning as I started my day to a mocking bird orchestra-in-one, and then a flock of naturalized parrots took flight, soaring overhead and squawking with such exuberance that all the dogs including our new puppy Lily stopped, turned and looked up, I began to ponder my song.

As a non-native speaker of these early morning songs, I can only marvel at their lyrical beauty.  Birds to me and to many of us have long symbolized freedom.  Their innate rapport with the sky alone is enough to create a sense of awe.  Their consistent singing, though is what really moves me.  It feels to me like the same commitment to being that trees and flowers demonstrate; a devotion to embodying the essence of each aspect regardless of location, weather, or any other mitigating circumstance.

Birds, I've noticed, sing even in the rain.  They sing when the local city workers are drilling and putting in new traffic lights, like this morning. They sing when it's cold and when it's scaldingly hot and hasn't rained in months.  They just sing.

I love to sing and although I typically don't start my day that way, I actually used to.  I typically start my day in quiet, listening, which I also love.  But I have not been singing much these last few years after giving my piano away when it lost it's tune and although I intended to buy a new one, I haven't and slowly as it often happens, music a great passion of my early days, just faded out of my daily experience.  

I remember being in college and going to choir after lunch while a student a Michigan State.  The incredible joy of making such beautiful sounds, breathing deeply and doing so with others, was pretty heavenly. 

Considering all the themes in life lately that have been urging us to tune into our heart's desires, I am wondering if perhaps it's time to take a hint from the birds and begin to do so--meaning to sing more, consciously and with the kind of simple enthusiasm for dawn, another day, for being alive and aware, to articulate my own affinity with the sky by wafting my own sounds on the breeze and letting my heart flow into song.  

I think there's a connection between music, the spheres, birds and harmony which is potentially the root of happiness: a no holds barred expressing of one's essence in the dance of life.

Singing is often associated with the breath, and there are all kinds of feelings about if one sings well, or not and who is a singer.  But in truth the birds songs I loved so much this morning were more about the innate ability we each have to just let our heart-felt participation in this amazing expansion loose!

These songs were just sung.  No rehersal.  These beautiful birds are being, not performing.  It was sharing, communicating, expressing perhaps, but there was no evaluation or judgment, just letting it rip with no thoughts--second or otherwise.

I can see where in the midst of this is some sort of cosmic clue: a recipe for happiness.  Something about love for everything and just being part of the game.  The birds don't have some idea of who they are or how they should sing that interferes or narrates the experience.  They just do it.  They do it their own way.  It's their thing.

When I sing with this kind of release, I feel great.  I am entirely extravagantly relaxed (all that breath pouring in and out) and happy.  It all becomes effortless and like the bird, I am free.  In a moment like this we just flow with sound and breath in a Oneness that's ancient and emblamatic of the nature of our being and all being.  Sound is, after all, vibration.  Vibration is the essence of life and light.  While singing we potentially release our identity as one being and become One with that moment of focus, with the harmony of other singers, the instrument, the dogs barking, the sound of the lawn mower, the tune on the radio, or even, sometimes a counterpoint to the silence.  

Our life is song as there is vibration created by our energy, from our intentions which take vibrational structure and although we don't often hear them, we emanate their themes.  We are continually, in essence, singing!

Singing has always given me joy and as I awaken I feel the longing for more of it again.  I sing to my dogs when I feed them.  I sing in my car.  And I can feel that this desire to sing is expanding.  It is I suspect a conscious, reliable pathway to the essence of my being, which is innately happy.  It's a way to dip into my connection with everything, to flow the energy of breath from my heart into sound and to allow my melody to take the essence of me to the sky.   The resurfacing of my desire to sing, however, is more than that--it's a sign that my whole being is longing for release beyond story and purpose into just expressing the essence I am.  

It's a reflection of the changes within and the transformation that is flowing within all of us.  It's becoming self-evident that my song is vital and important as is yours.  And that each of us choosing to be our own undistorted melody is the essence of the new song...the song of harmony, peace, love and happiness on the inner planes, mirrored in the manifest reality. 

I may not be able to fly, but as I realize that I am consistently singing, I can own my ability to tune the air to my song.  I consciously realize that I am continually broadcasting, and everything that is, hear's everything I transmit.

With this in mind, I choose to be the essence of me: an enthusiastic sharer.  A joy-filled being who loves to translate into words, paintings, stories, experiences, or sounds, what I've felt, discovered, know and love.  That's me. That's my song.  And there is no end...there's more where that came from, I am infinite and limitlessly expanding with everything that is.

Each day that I let myself just be myself, without judgment or concern, I sing my true song.  There is the ultimate alignment of being as essence.  There is ease.  Life opens up as I do.  I become one with the morning with creation and claim my own connection to the sky.  And instead of pondering my song, I simply close the gap by being me: I AM my song.  

luminous being: entry into 2012

by meredith murphy 

I am still humming with awe at my entry into this auspicious year of 2012, and astonished by what can be accomplished by forgiveness--especially self-forgiveness--on this journey of remembering and re-assembling as light. 

Recently I traveled to Lake Louise in the Canadian Rockies.  I went to gather energies and experience the Archangel Michael vortex there for the dawn of the Lunar New Year.  I was thrilled to be returning--it had been 28 years since my last visit to the Canadian Rockies, and I booked a room with a view of the lake in the beautiful Chateau.  

Even before I travelled there I was craving silence.  I'm not talking about quiet, I mean silence.  Like "not talking, no sound, hours on end into days just being" kind of silence.  I kept thinking about the character in "Eat, Pray, Love," who took a vow of silence and walked around with an I'M IN SILENCE name-tag on.  I knew that I needed a deepening that was available in not talking not reading not engaging the mind or the voice, in letting go of the need to communicate things.  So I let my friends and family know I would not be talking while I was there and I entered into a silent communion with myself in this sacred place.

What I hadn't anticipated was the intensity of the emotional release and spiritual clarification I would experience.

My first day there I felt the affinity with this place at this time--as the layers and layers of snow and the miles of gently touched mountains were vibrating with the feeling that was surfacing in me.  The photo above is a photo I took while hiking around Lake Louise and back toward the glaciers on Mt. Victoria.  I walked quietly and mostly alone, save for a few cross country skiers on the lake, for several hours, back into the forest behind the lake, past frozen waterfalls, and small spots where fresh water still ran, not frozen, and then I just stopped, standing in the stillness, merging with it all, letting go.

The potent combination of the gentle yet pristine energies with silence, initiated a review of my life and my feeling about me, that left me emotionally exhausted, physically drained, and energetically cleansed.

Ever since arriving in Banff and then Lake Louise, I found my heart opening and all kinds of things moved me.  At my first glimpse of the foothills, I had a powerful release and had to pull my car off the road, while I let the unarticulated emotions flow through me.  

This feeling of emotional release only intensified as I arrived at Lake Louise and checked into the Chateau.  Everything moved me!  I recognized the undiffrentiated oneness of reality expressed in other people, in families eating breakfast, in the dog sleeping in the lobby, in the kids skating, the foreign visitors taking photos of the ice sculptures and most of all, in the mirror.  My eyes teared up, my heart chakra burned and opened wider, it felt good, but intense.  I wept and cried, sometimes so much so I had to get up and go to the bathroom and blow my nose, or back to my room to just lie down for a good release/cry, and often with no specific idea about why--just this deep feeling of unity and beauty.  I felt the incredible joyous happiness of loving everything and everyone and not needing to get away from anything--everything felt good and fine and actually, like a long-lost, previously unreognized soul-mate.  It was amazing.

Then the clearing triggered by all this high-vibe energy began.  The day following my long walk, all kinds of unpleasant ideas about me and my life surfaced for review and release, for love and most of all for forgiveness--some of others, but mostly, self-forgiveness.  Old and long-seemingly forgotten impressions arose--of many people I disappointed and those who disappointed me.  The combination of this amazing place, and the simple act of not filling up my attention with things, allowed things needing my attention to just come forth.  

It was painful, and challenging and unexpected.  I knew enough to let it flow. To remember I was not these feelings and to try and enlarge my perspective (unsuccessfully).  I knew the point of this was to forgive myself--for all the ways I wasn't who I wanted to be throughout my life.  I am grateful that even though I had very strong difficult feelings, I also knew this was the energy of a powerful place working on me and I trusted this most relentless and agonizing experience. I wasn't feeling grateful particularly while it was happening, but there was a sense of trust.  I was amazed to realize how alive these feelings were.  How much they still hurt.  How difficult it was to let them flow through me.  I felt the pain of the times I fell short of my own ideas of who I wanted to be, when I wasn't able to do what I said, or wanted to do, when I fell short of ideals of other people who I love, when I broke promises, spoke sharp words in anger, judged and criticized someone else, held myself back out of fears of not being good enough, but mostly it was the times I felt I let other people close to me down that hurt the most--and all of this came up and ultimately looped back to how I felt about me.  In the midst of all this, I began to feel dismayed and as if my trip was a waste!  Yet, even then, with all this going on for hours with seemingly no end, my heart knew otherwise.  I just kept breathing.  I knew not to reach out to friends or anyone else--I knew I would be fine and more importantly that there was a great gift in letting myself experience all this with surrender and awareness.  

The night after this most difficult day I went to bed early--about 7:30 pm--with these still unresolved difficult feelings and thoughts lingering.  I was exhausted.  I woke up in the pre-dawn hours about 4 am.  I got up to look out the window--I couldn't see anything except the lit ice rink, the frozen part of Lake Louise closest to the hotel.  The mountains and the glacier were hidden and the whole sky was dark.  I lay back down and tuned in, feeling myself.  I felt a little better.  I allowed the whole thing going on to surface fully in my awareness and I again chose to elevate my view, to look at my life and all these disappointing memories and feelings, from the perspective of my higher self and at last, with no effort, it came: an enveloping soft wave of love, and a moment of true knowing from within. Clear realization and soft feelings.  I just knew that I had done the best I could.  I felt the genuine relief of knowing my own timeless, infinite energy was simpy having an experience.  Many experiences.  I could see this beyond labels, stories, judgment and duality because the Oneness I Am was alive and well and coursing through my whole being.  I called upon the I AM that I AM and asked for the experience of self-forgiveness.  I was able to truly, deeply, forgive myself and let go of everything that lingered within me--all those memories and the stories, the enormous guilt and sadness.  I felt the roots of all this just dissolve--the interpretation that somehow I ought to have been anything other then what and who I was in each and every moment of this experience--of any experience, really.  I realized I was no longer comparing myself and my life with these expectations.  I saw how ridiculous it all was--this idea of needing to be something I'm not.  I felt how totally a-okay I really am and always have been while still knowing everything I know about me.  I held it all in my awareness and it just dissolved into love.  I saw everything in the light of the Oneness I AM.  I smiled outloud!  Everything felt very still and quiet, but in a totally different way.  I noticed: there were no thoughts, no sad feelings, nothing, but the quiet of the night and the glorious lingering feeling of peace.  I laughed.  Then I laughed again.  I kept laughing. And then, I said it outloud, "I completely forgive myself.  Yes!  I entirely release all of this."  Then I asked my higher self to clear out all these energies within me and I felt the appreciation of letting go of all these illusions! about me/my life.

I went back to sleep.  I slept deep into the morning.  When I woke up everything was, and is, still peaceful, new and quiet.  :)

Self-forgiveness is the ultimate balm for the heart.  Nothing I've ever experienced has been so transformative and made such huge, sweeping and lasting changes in my life in such short time.  If you think of it, a life review that took a couple of days and liberates this kind of joy is quite amazing.  All kinds of practices and ways of focusing can get us into clarity, calm, expansive spaciousness or a feel good state, but this deep return to wholeness given by forgiving ourselves eclipses all of those other ways of arriving at happiness--when we love ourselves as are ourselves just as we already are, happiness just IS.  Right now.  Continually.  No journey required.

When I returned and the experience had integrated a bit I saw that letting go of all these illusions about me, liberates a sense of non-Self.  A return to unity in awareness so that I no longer consider my value, my purpose, my origins, my unique possibilities--all of these are stories, layered upon the simplicity of being.  When I am healed of guilt and the need to please others, or myself, my heart now freed, is just open and life is and I live directly.  I create, I sit, I write down and put words to ideas.  I don't evaluate it or analyze it.  I express what I feel and I let it be as it is.  I feel a sense of resonance or completion when I've reflected the wholeness of an idea, but there is no judgement or thinking about it.  It's just knowing through feeling.

I have been fortunate to live much of my life with self-confidence, clarity, a sense of empowerment and joy.  Yet still, underneath it were these common threads of so many paths of the human experience, tying up my heart and holding me hostage to my own inner (internalized) critic.  Pushing me.  Inhibiting my flow in very subtle ways...interrupting my natural state and pinching me just a little bit off from feeling unabashadly, across my whole life, SUPERBLY great about me, which of course inhibits my ability to feel superbly great about ALL of me (which includes you and everything else...) 

For many of us, we work at getting here, seeking seeking seeking.  But as many great spiritual teachers have shared with us, that doesn't work--it actually comes from not seeking.  It's already here.  It really just needs to be released and revealed.  And for me, letting go of all these stories, was like the last turn of the combination lock that set me free.  Letting go of any idea of separation-- which breeds comparison and feelings of inadequacy, ideas that there is "A" way things ought to be, or should have happened.  How ridiculous is it to argue with reality?  How often we do so.  Clarity and freedom are experienced when we stop trying to be anything and instead we just let ourself be who we already are.

Without the stories evaluating and defining me, articulating my meaning and the purpose of my life, guess what?  Nothing falls apart.  Surprisingly I continue to be and feel like myself, only lighter and happier.  I discover there is not even relief in this experience, for there is no sense of the other to find relief from--it's dissappeared!  It's just easy and natural.  Now home, in California, with my cat Astra sleeping on the cushion next to me, I realize this is how she lives--with no idea of self.  Just being.  

We are everything.  We may not be able to cognate about it, or put it into words, but we can actually live as the Oneness we are, without having a definition of who we are.  We can stop paying so much attention to the flavor of our bodies, the particulars of our work, the ideas of who we want to be.  We don't need an elevator speech about our career, or a way to tell people what we're doing with our life.  We can go deeper, wider and beyond this and just relate directly to life.  We can show up without using stories or labels, or conventions to define who any of us are. We can drop the need to please or impress others by telling them in some careful way who we are and what we do.  We can stop defining people this way too.  So much of what we say about our selves is a cover-up to smooth out and make ourselves into who we want to be seen as.  It implies there is some need to do this, that there is something wrong with just being who you are.  That if you don't say these things, you will be misunderstood, not valued, not seen, not loved, that the real you just being there, isn't enough.  There is nothing wrong with who you are.  Or anything you've done or not done.  There is not a "thing" you have to do.  Everytime we layer these stories on top of our life, we complicate things and remove ourselves from direct experience.  We hide our most radiant essence from our selves and attempt to dress it up for others.  

As uncomplicated and unbelievable as it may sound--somehow the truth is that just being genuinely carefree and happy you are everything. Ironically it's by not striving that so much is emanated and experienced.

Striving and goals are expressions of separation.  Does my heart have to have a goal to beat and keep me alive?  Do my eyes have to make an effort and strive to read the words I type?  No.  This is innate and just is.  The Oneness we are flows into everything, taking form as the information holographically structures everything.  We are holographic to the whole, which means we have access to everything while being this particular essence of All.

How do we "get there," then?  How do we re-learn how to just be and stop thinking and trying so hard?  For me it has been a long, gradual process of becoming more aware of how I relate to myself, and the linch-pin was actually to deeply and fully go through my past and see all the things I still felt badly about and then, slowly gently, forgive myself.  How do we forgive ourselves?  For me, this was triggered by silence...lots of it.  When we stop talking and we stop distracting ourselves with conversation and brain-food and activity, gradually stuff surfaces.  We notice what's underneath it all and I won't kid you--for me, this was hard.  We may find that we identify with the bad feelings the memories of all the times we "failed" to be who we thought we ought to be.  We try to reconcile the past with the now.  We wonder how others will view us now, if they only knew all the ways we were "less than great" in the past.  We feel the agony of holding ourselves to some standard beyond what we truly were capable of at the time.  The only relief is to let go--to bring love to our own self-perception and gradually, gently we let go of all the expectations that we have and have had, of ourselves.  Doing this, we are more able to forgive others.  (Bonus!) It is these expectations we have of ourselves that create guilt, that allow us to hold a grudge against ourselves (and others) and beyond them we instead relate to life as IT IS.  Not as we in our mind think it ought to be, or what should have been possible, or what we wanted to happen, we relate to life as it is.  Knowing that like the heart and the eyes, the human being--me and you--are just as we are.  (And together we are such a beautiful One!)  So, perhaps, then we just lighten up about it all.

What if, we give ourselves permission and stop thinking about everything so much and living a mediated experience--choreographed and narrated by our mind--instead, we become a direct expression of life?  No interference.  No running commentary.  No need to compare or evaluate. Just here, just now. Just being and not worrying about the results or the destination.  Allowing ourselves to say what we feel, to feel what we feel and to just be a free, fresh, innocent presence within our own life.  Noticing everything, loving and appreciating everything, not-engaged but fully present; curious and interested. Filled with love, expressing as kindness and tenderness and a sense of humor about the many variations of our own self--some in our form over time, some reflected in others.  

Having given up the need to be perfect, better, or other then we are, and having forgiven ourselves (meaning having released all the expectations of our own life where we argued with what was possible, what simply was) we finally become free.  Happy with life as it is, enjoying the process of being and growing and creating, yet loving all variations on the One theme...And just as we are, without making all kinds of improvements to ourselves, just by dropping the expectations that we be different than we are, we change everything.  

Now, at peace within and in this quiet, simple generous fulfillment of our being, we begin to create the inner reality of New Earth made manifest. Luminous being arises; as light reflecting the Oneness, we expand the lens of the Golden Dawn, love flowing through us, and the momentum and light growing toward that much anticipated morning.  Remembering, reflecting and re-assembling the One IAM/WeAre.