expect wonderful digest | ode to YOU

by meredith murphy

There is so much to appreciate in yourself.  Today is a beautiful time to take it all in and smile. ♥  After all, YOU were made for this. 

You realize in hindsight the immensity of it all, in the beginning you just knew something BIG was happening...remember? 

Your sense of who you are becomes increasingly undefined, initially you feel scared and concerned about all the changes in your life.  But somehow you have a weird, unexplainable sense that everything is actually okay.  You cannot explain this in ways that make sense to others and yet this feeling persists. 

You follow your hunches, and allow synchronicity to lead you.  You tune into your intution and pay attention to what you sense and what feels right to you, what speaks to you, what resonates.

 You find books, people, communities who are actually having similar experiences and your understanding begins to coalesce.  Your body initially is having the most noticeable experiences.  You get hot.  You get cold.  You wake up repeatedly in the middle of the night.  You begin to feel very sensitive to the vibration of the people around you.  You withdraw.  You start noticing numbers.  You wonder what they mean.  You may feel tired or intense energy and then discover there was a big earthquake.  Your frequency is rising.  Love becomes a pervasive idea--you begin to think and contemplate about love, exploring it as identity and experience.  This seems very important and in ways that are different and new.  You start to realize this is about something spiritual, not in a religious way, or like in the past, but somehow it's about physics and the divine in every person and stuff like that. 

You go through cycles of feeling great joy, then feeling exhausted.  You find yourself experiencing old memories out of the blue and then when they're gone, you feel lighter, clearer, and yet you're in a void kind of energy where nothing happens.  You wonder if you'll ever be the same.  You are very happy when sharing with others who understand all this.  Nature gives you great peace.  Your heart opens more and more.  You start forgiving others and you're easier on yourself  You begin to have moments of total awe as you realize how amazing this all is.  Then you wonder if it's even real.  You want everyone you love to be part of this.  You try to tell them, get them involved.  They don't have that much interest and think it's kinda weird.  You push more because you do not want to leave them behind.  You want to give all the love you feel to them and to the Earth and to make everything whole and right again.  You're passionate about this.  But you also feel so tired.  You feel sad that you cannot share this with people you have known and cared for a long time.  You look inside and realize perhaps you're not as trusting as you thought.  You begin to explore very subtle things within.  Noticing when you get angry, what scares you, the moments of frustration and pain become little signs of places to heal and love more.  You start there and you stop worrying about everyone else.  You realize it's your role to bring yourself into a whole, balanced state of being and everyone else is to do the same when and if they choose to.  You start to let go in big ways and this makes things a lot easier.  You begin to love yourself more and and more and you start being very gentle and kind to you. 

Eventually, your self-esteem grows.  You feel deep and amazing love for yourself.  This liberates you. You move beyond dimensional boundaries.  You're happy for no reason.  You don't feel compelled to do anything in particular.  You live in the flow.  You let the day unfold and realize whatever happens you are perfect and beautiful.  You take care of your earthly life--you do your taxes, care for your body with exercise and beautiful organic foods.  You simplify.  You have no interest in many things that you used to be interested in, but lots of interest in living, in being, in creating and in learning and growing and sharing joy and fun with other people.  You wonder where this is all going.  You get impatient sometimes to know more.  You realize it's the ego wanting to control things by always wanting to know how things are going to be or see into the future.  Your return to the present and relax. 

You breathe deeply and often with awareness and appreciation.  You are amazed and appreciative to discover you always have enough money, enough clients, enough time, enough freedom to live more and more how you like.  Things happen fast.  You move through emotions quickly.  Difficult feelings arise and then before you know it are gone.  Afterward, other amazing things open up.  You see the connection between these experiences and are deeply touched. 

In the flow, you create things in an hour, or an afternoon which you used to take weeks of planning and organizing then doing.  You have more time to just be.  You find immense, moving joy in all kinds of simple moments.  Beauty is everywhere.  You're touched and moved emotionally often.  When you're tired you take a nap.  You're well beyond lists and pushing yourself.  You've let go.  You create with intention and then allow inspiration and intuition to lead you. 

Life is harmonious, peaceful, easy, joyful, expansive and there are timeless moments of just being in bliss.  Your whole way of being has lightened up.  You are not concerned about the dissolving aspects of the old paradigm--the things in your world or the world which are still sorting themselves you.  You do your work inside--continually cultivating your peace and harmony, knowing the world is just a reflection of what's within. 

You let everyone do their own thing, and it actually doesn't even bother you anymore.  Amazing.  You know everything is beneficial.  It makes you laugh out loud to realize how much easier this is.  You believe in freedom.  You trust in the divine nature of every being and in yourself.  You resist nothing.  Everything is welcome.  You set standards and intentions and create your experience by attunement and listen to your own innate wisdom.  You are inspired by friends and others, but you are the authority in your own life.  No one's opinion or knowledge is more valid or important than you own.  You feel strong, clear, energized and excited about life.  You cherish and celebrate the community you have, honoring the diversity and feeling deep peace upon your own path.

You are on a path of full embodiment of your expansive, non-incarnate self, your I AM presence.  You are part of a wave, a momentum, an ascending energy arc that includes the whole planet...

You are awakening...! 

And YOU were made for this.

Life begins to reveal expanded possibilities and potential.

Eventually you realize this life is simply a beautiful, love-filled emanation of your expanded self.  Your heart opens wide.  You emanate the light you are.  Feet on the ground, you soar.

 

Comments

[Janice Kennedy]

That's me in a nutshell.

Thank you, thank you, thank you

[Sharon Lyn Shepard]

So beautifully voiced and encapsulated. Made me smile, made me cry, made me laugh ~ all of Life freely expressed! Thank you for all of who you are and sharing so transparently all these years. It has made our journey (humanity) together so much more enjoyable. And now.... we get to co-create in the fullest sense of the word. Woo hoo! I LOVE YOU!

[Theresa Stafford]

Yes Yes Yes! So great to have validation here.

[Liza]

Thank You, Meredith...I SO appreciate your sharing...and the laughs that go along with it :)

[Wanda]

This is absolutely Beautiful......You speak what is in my heart
Love, Appreciation and Grattitude to you my dear star friend:))

[Bruce Fisher]

Beautiful. Thank you.

[Julie Heminsley]

I relate to all of this..It could have been written by me! The only 2 exceptions are I'm not doing enough exercise and don't always eat organic food..

[Jill Angelonides]

I am filled with Appreciation & Love for the way you are Dancing your path & the beautiful way you have expressed this process of actualiztion! It has been all of these things for me too and soothes my soul to connect with your message & hear of all the other fellow spiritual soul mates sharing this time & journey!

[Elizabeth de Lorimier]

Truly amazing Meredith!!! One of the best summaries I've read of what's happening...at least for me this is what I am experiencing and some of which I am going towards and aspiring too! I have not been able to put it in words. Thank you for this acknowledgement and sharing your precious and wonderful medicine.

Wishing you a joyous event tomorrow. I will be at a graduate light body training - so tapping into some similar energy. Love & Appreciation for YOU, Elizabeth

[Thelma]

Meredith,

What a fantastic recap! I saw myself in all you described and have certainly reached a space where I see beauty everywhere and am able to let others go, knowing they are each on their own path. (This was one of my greatest lessons, letting others take full responsibility for their lives instead of rushing in to save them.)

I can also identify with your statement - "You are becoming increasingly undefined" as I am beginning to feel the Light and vastness of Being without borders. It's like my ego is dissolving as I surrender to something deeper and more powerful.

Thanks to all for sharing so honestly in this community of Love.

Wonderful blog, very appreciated!

Blessings to all, Thelma

[Mary]

Amen Sistar ~ And so It Is!!!
Love You!
Love & hugs to All
Mary :)
xoxoxo

[Nora]

Meridith, I have enjoyed your column for quite a while now, but never commented. This moved me so much! You are doing something so important - voicing what we are experiencing (and doing so brilliantly!) so we understand we are each and everyone a part of something so beautiful and vast. Thank you, thank you!

[Patrise Shaq]

Right on the mark, as usual! Your column expresses exactly what is going on with me...always! Thank you for making this journey with me! love, love, love.

[Neva]

Increasingly undefined ... immense joy in simple movement ... don't feel compelled to do anything in particular ... impatient sometimes to know more ... create things in an hour ... more time to be ... so much more resonated deeply. I AM awake.

[Ma Deva Sadhvi]

Me too......in a nutshell!!!

[Billy Jamez Martin]

Reading that felt like watching a flower grow from seed to seed. Inspiring, validating, and filled with light information. Energy emanates from these words you share and its Awing and Heart filled. I see this has been felt across a large amount of hearts, which is such excitement for All for this allows more light, ease, and harmony to be received. Thank you for reflecting so intuitively from your heart.

I love all the comments above, its comforting to see we are all one within all of this love. This feelz so blissful and uplifting being with all of you and this. Thank You All.

TREMENDOUS APPRECIATION TO YOU MEREDITH AND TO ALL OF US.

[Shanta Gabriel]

That is a beautiful sharing for all of us in this strangely wondrous time. Thank you for having such a unique way of expressing what is in our hearts and going on in our lives. You are a blessing! Love, Shanta

[joan]

thank you so much for your heartfelt words that describe what so many of are going through but cannot articulate. You have the gift of putting it all together in a form...thank you.

[Luey]

Simply and BeautiFULLY expressed...brought tears to my eyes...thank you. And thanks Shanta Gabriel for directing me to your site Meredith!

[Derek Easton]

WOW. I feel like you wrote that for me. In fact it was so strange that I actually had to remind myself that I didn't write this.

[Robert Neeley]

Thanks! I was going to comment earlier, but I think I let go of something, and lapsed into a deep meditation.